Bubbly Zanna, your words are being 'translated' back to whatever-it-is that makes me do this strange work and animates the pen-name 'enna' - about which I am in a state of constant surprise, challenge and on-your-toes-ness.
Eager to witness the new folds and waves of your bubbliness as it lets itself be inhabited by what calls in silence...
Excellent Zanna, you Nutcracker... (the Bolshoy theater had, may still have, a tradition of staging the Nutcracker ballet around New year's day, and would be taken over by hordes of children).
Cracking the nut of spirit at end of life, huh? Chicken and egg... Spirit that breathes us physically is part and parcel of the whole surrounding spirit of life, and at death it just melts back into the larger subtle whole (while physically still supporting the teaming life that decomposes bodies). 'Breathe me' is nothing more, nor less, than the human's conscious GIFT of recognition to the spirit that breathes us. There is no 'subservience', I don't know where you got that idea. Spirit is what keeps life alive, hence it is thus in a certain way primary - it doesn't need anyone to say 'breathe me' for it to do its job. But the 'breathe me' command empowers its power to serve life beyond the baseline. AND the consistent attitude of its non-practice opens out into dimensions of spirit beyond the physical breath.
When does the command to be breathed depart? That's up to the human for only the human can offer that command. What goes first? In most people it's spirit but in consistent non-doers 'breathe me' can put the human in charge of the experience of dying, which is far more of the subtle than of the physical realms. Consider that great sages choose their moment of dying, and their corpses have been found to not decay... On the other hand, in us ordinary mortals, when spirit has left the body, that is the end of the body as a coherent entity, but the 'physical portion' of spirit remains to breathe the myriad bacteria that are very alive indeed to do the decomposition job.
Perhaps you won't mind me noticing that you are putting a lot of mind-work into this, wanting to know about stuff that in intellectual terms is of the chicken-and-egg variety, but reveals itself in its own 'other logic' when non-doing allows the greater reality to make itself perceptible.
Same goes for 'desire to cohere the natural recollection of engaging superhuman mystic power'. Nothing wrong with desire for one's subtle reality! But non-doing absolutely requires leaving aside anything of the 'desire' sphere - no intention, no imagination, no result-orientation, no ambition. This prerequisite is for the subtle self to be able to express itself, at last, and on its own terms, whereby it reveals stuff way beyond the mind's ability to fathom. If you impose upon it your concept of 'engaging superhuman mystic power', or any concept, it shies away and keeps its treasure hidden. Nowhere in Broody is such a concept present. Why seek the 'superhuman' when the whole non-doing experience is about bringing back nothing more - and nothing less - than the human. Which in turn is the key to whatever 'mystic power' inheres in us. Said 'mystic power' is very private, very modest, and best revealed in the cultivation of the beginner's attitude. It is, in my experience, considerably more delicious and awe-inspiring to recover the human than to aim for the superhuman. And my experience avoids the concept of 'power'. Just sayin'...
'Weeks of struggle' - what can I say. 'Struggle' is of the ego-mind. There is a whole chapter in the book about the ego-mind, and especially its key trick : to make one unaware of its tricks. 'The more determined I am the more it plays with me' - exactly, you've got your proof of the ego-mind's pudding right there. 'Determined' is also of the ego-mind, which is delighted to have you fight against it so that it can stay in control - the human trick to defuse that is the gentleness (ruthless in its persistence) of no-fight.
Oh these mind-tricks... They're so prevalent in western people.
Your mind knows that you are after something, and 'cooperates' but on its own terms. It has caught upon a number of yummy-looking bits in Broody and recomposed them to its liking, rendering invisible to itself and you core non-doing aspects. This all being very much in earnest, as you rightly note - there is no doubt that Zanna is the earnest dame!
With your words, you've demonstrated to yourself a very big thing of the conditioned mind, congratulations! All you need to do is notice those tricks, and let them go if you so decide. Which in turn allows the ego-mind to become the friend and ally of the 'greater mind'...
By the way, 'give up for a while' does not mean 'surrender' (the latter is also a dangerous word aggravated by new age speak. What are we surrendering to when we give up?). Anyway, nowhere in the book have I used the notion of surrender - on the contrary it is all about establishing the interaction between the subtle self and the spirit-breath, through what is a command, not a request or a plea or anything submissive like 'surrender'.
On the topic of dying again - as the breath gets increasingly ragged, this is the physical aspect only, for the dying human is actually largely already gone. It could be that 'being breathed' for them would be a helpful form of accompaniment and support, at least that's what I have found with several of my passing animals. I sense it to be the most discrete but real form of presence for the dying, who are actually very busy at soul-consciousness level during such times, and need our presence more than anything else.
Let me share first, although I have not listen yet to the two newest podcast, I'm looking forward to them. I will sit during these last hours in what I agree with you the strange 2023 experience, to listen and watch. Thank you for these gifts.
I also want to thank you for the books and what is been shared this last year from other podcast or through Substack.
Speaking about strange, but a lesson learn in relation to what it is to been Human with feelings and energy.
What suppose to be a turning point into my life at the end of this year, what it was but not a nice one, made me question how much more lessons I can handle.
Probably more because else what was the reason....?
A long story short, I thought to live with a man who understand me as being a woman and a Human. Our vibe seems to connect and also the way his life was in regard to self- suffincientcy had my interest. Communication what is for me the first prior in any relation was for him also a starting point. He was familiar with NLP, chi- neng qi-gong, transformationel breathing, mastercommunicator, mind and body coaching etc. This was al new for me but made that this man had my interest and was the reason I stop with my work, and my rented Chalet ( still have some months ) so I could live with him.
But after some days I felt not comfert and the vibe I felt wasn't good besides this whitin everything I said or if I watched a podcast his coaching technics from NLP was his tool for communication and the way he want to learn me more.
Probably his intentions where good but for me it felt to walk on eggshells.
So it made me decide to pack as many stuff as I could and drove back to Belgium and step into my still rented Chalet but it was empty........we had all my stuff moved a week earlier.
But I was so happy that I did this and although the Chalet was almost empthy the vibe was good and safe.
Has a 53 year young woman with now no job, less stuff and don't now how long because of money I can stay in the Chalet I'm still have faith and looking forward to probably even a more strange new year.
Enna is this a learning curve withi my Human soul...........?
Thank you for sharing all this, and for going through that transformation bravely as you did.
Yes, it is a learning curve, and it is hard and rapid nowadays, for there is no time left for taking it easy. Especially for women, since we have to digest the whole woman-debasing paradigm of millennia, and most men even with the best of intentions cannot understand that from inside.
The old crumbling system is no longer 'protecting' you with its 'safety' (job, etc). For the system, you at 53 are becoming less 'useful'. The man you liked turned out not to be supportive of your path but needed to put you in his 'box'. Hmmm...
In such a situation, we can remain terrified and dependent on this system or the next worse one, or we can realize (as you are realizing) that the circumstances are lining up to invite us into Reality. It is scary, and exciting, and yes, Reality calls us into the mystery of our own souls - in the subtle interaction with all the forces around - our souls wanting us at last to express their essence (instead of obeying the twisted rules of a false system) through our incarnation bodies.
Give your soul a chance to 'tell' you what it wants for your life - or rather, give yourself a chance to 'hear' what it wants! Allow a dialogue to develop, you're at the perfect age for this, when the best half of life is ahead of you. Dialogue in the heart region only - just put the thoughts of your mind into the heart region, and you'll learn that Reality has plenty of guidance for you. Including for the practical stuff (job, money, place to live, etc). The more you do this, the easier it becomes, and serenity increases as the strangeness grows.
Bubbly Zanna, your words are being 'translated' back to whatever-it-is that makes me do this strange work and animates the pen-name 'enna' - about which I am in a state of constant surprise, challenge and on-your-toes-ness.
Eager to witness the new folds and waves of your bubbliness as it lets itself be inhabited by what calls in silence...
Excellent Zanna, you Nutcracker... (the Bolshoy theater had, may still have, a tradition of staging the Nutcracker ballet around New year's day, and would be taken over by hordes of children).
Cracking the nut of spirit at end of life, huh? Chicken and egg... Spirit that breathes us physically is part and parcel of the whole surrounding spirit of life, and at death it just melts back into the larger subtle whole (while physically still supporting the teaming life that decomposes bodies). 'Breathe me' is nothing more, nor less, than the human's conscious GIFT of recognition to the spirit that breathes us. There is no 'subservience', I don't know where you got that idea. Spirit is what keeps life alive, hence it is thus in a certain way primary - it doesn't need anyone to say 'breathe me' for it to do its job. But the 'breathe me' command empowers its power to serve life beyond the baseline. AND the consistent attitude of its non-practice opens out into dimensions of spirit beyond the physical breath.
When does the command to be breathed depart? That's up to the human for only the human can offer that command. What goes first? In most people it's spirit but in consistent non-doers 'breathe me' can put the human in charge of the experience of dying, which is far more of the subtle than of the physical realms. Consider that great sages choose their moment of dying, and their corpses have been found to not decay... On the other hand, in us ordinary mortals, when spirit has left the body, that is the end of the body as a coherent entity, but the 'physical portion' of spirit remains to breathe the myriad bacteria that are very alive indeed to do the decomposition job.
Perhaps you won't mind me noticing that you are putting a lot of mind-work into this, wanting to know about stuff that in intellectual terms is of the chicken-and-egg variety, but reveals itself in its own 'other logic' when non-doing allows the greater reality to make itself perceptible.
Same goes for 'desire to cohere the natural recollection of engaging superhuman mystic power'. Nothing wrong with desire for one's subtle reality! But non-doing absolutely requires leaving aside anything of the 'desire' sphere - no intention, no imagination, no result-orientation, no ambition. This prerequisite is for the subtle self to be able to express itself, at last, and on its own terms, whereby it reveals stuff way beyond the mind's ability to fathom. If you impose upon it your concept of 'engaging superhuman mystic power', or any concept, it shies away and keeps its treasure hidden. Nowhere in Broody is such a concept present. Why seek the 'superhuman' when the whole non-doing experience is about bringing back nothing more - and nothing less - than the human. Which in turn is the key to whatever 'mystic power' inheres in us. Said 'mystic power' is very private, very modest, and best revealed in the cultivation of the beginner's attitude. It is, in my experience, considerably more delicious and awe-inspiring to recover the human than to aim for the superhuman. And my experience avoids the concept of 'power'. Just sayin'...
'Weeks of struggle' - what can I say. 'Struggle' is of the ego-mind. There is a whole chapter in the book about the ego-mind, and especially its key trick : to make one unaware of its tricks. 'The more determined I am the more it plays with me' - exactly, you've got your proof of the ego-mind's pudding right there. 'Determined' is also of the ego-mind, which is delighted to have you fight against it so that it can stay in control - the human trick to defuse that is the gentleness (ruthless in its persistence) of no-fight.
Oh these mind-tricks... They're so prevalent in western people.
Your mind knows that you are after something, and 'cooperates' but on its own terms. It has caught upon a number of yummy-looking bits in Broody and recomposed them to its liking, rendering invisible to itself and you core non-doing aspects. This all being very much in earnest, as you rightly note - there is no doubt that Zanna is the earnest dame!
With your words, you've demonstrated to yourself a very big thing of the conditioned mind, congratulations! All you need to do is notice those tricks, and let them go if you so decide. Which in turn allows the ego-mind to become the friend and ally of the 'greater mind'...
By the way, 'give up for a while' does not mean 'surrender' (the latter is also a dangerous word aggravated by new age speak. What are we surrendering to when we give up?). Anyway, nowhere in the book have I used the notion of surrender - on the contrary it is all about establishing the interaction between the subtle self and the spirit-breath, through what is a command, not a request or a plea or anything submissive like 'surrender'.
On the topic of dying again - as the breath gets increasingly ragged, this is the physical aspect only, for the dying human is actually largely already gone. It could be that 'being breathed' for them would be a helpful form of accompaniment and support, at least that's what I have found with several of my passing animals. I sense it to be the most discrete but real form of presence for the dying, who are actually very busy at soul-consciousness level during such times, and need our presence more than anything else.
Dear Enna,
Let me share first, although I have not listen yet to the two newest podcast, I'm looking forward to them. I will sit during these last hours in what I agree with you the strange 2023 experience, to listen and watch. Thank you for these gifts.
I also want to thank you for the books and what is been shared this last year from other podcast or through Substack.
Speaking about strange, but a lesson learn in relation to what it is to been Human with feelings and energy.
What suppose to be a turning point into my life at the end of this year, what it was but not a nice one, made me question how much more lessons I can handle.
Probably more because else what was the reason....?
A long story short, I thought to live with a man who understand me as being a woman and a Human. Our vibe seems to connect and also the way his life was in regard to self- suffincientcy had my interest. Communication what is for me the first prior in any relation was for him also a starting point. He was familiar with NLP, chi- neng qi-gong, transformationel breathing, mastercommunicator, mind and body coaching etc. This was al new for me but made that this man had my interest and was the reason I stop with my work, and my rented Chalet ( still have some months ) so I could live with him.
But after some days I felt not comfert and the vibe I felt wasn't good besides this whitin everything I said or if I watched a podcast his coaching technics from NLP was his tool for communication and the way he want to learn me more.
Probably his intentions where good but for me it felt to walk on eggshells.
So it made me decide to pack as many stuff as I could and drove back to Belgium and step into my still rented Chalet but it was empty........we had all my stuff moved a week earlier.
But I was so happy that I did this and although the Chalet was almost empthy the vibe was good and safe.
Has a 53 year young woman with now no job, less stuff and don't now how long because of money I can stay in the Chalet I'm still have faith and looking forward to probably even a more strange new year.
Enna is this a learning curve withi my Human soul...........?
With love from Belgium,
daniëlle
Dear Danielle,
Thank you for sharing all this, and for going through that transformation bravely as you did.
Yes, it is a learning curve, and it is hard and rapid nowadays, for there is no time left for taking it easy. Especially for women, since we have to digest the whole woman-debasing paradigm of millennia, and most men even with the best of intentions cannot understand that from inside.
The old crumbling system is no longer 'protecting' you with its 'safety' (job, etc). For the system, you at 53 are becoming less 'useful'. The man you liked turned out not to be supportive of your path but needed to put you in his 'box'. Hmmm...
In such a situation, we can remain terrified and dependent on this system or the next worse one, or we can realize (as you are realizing) that the circumstances are lining up to invite us into Reality. It is scary, and exciting, and yes, Reality calls us into the mystery of our own souls - in the subtle interaction with all the forces around - our souls wanting us at last to express their essence (instead of obeying the twisted rules of a false system) through our incarnation bodies.
Give your soul a chance to 'tell' you what it wants for your life - or rather, give yourself a chance to 'hear' what it wants! Allow a dialogue to develop, you're at the perfect age for this, when the best half of life is ahead of you. Dialogue in the heart region only - just put the thoughts of your mind into the heart region, and you'll learn that Reality has plenty of guidance for you. Including for the practical stuff (job, money, place to live, etc). The more you do this, the easier it becomes, and serenity increases as the strangeness grows.
You're on your way, Danielle - congratulations!
Dear Enna,
To recieve your inspiring and for me truthful message gave me strenght.
Appreciate the time for sharing it with me and it is a gift a gift I will take into 2024.
With love,
daniëlle